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2012/11/21: Emotional Crash

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The past few days have kind of been an emotionally-unstable meltdown for me in certain ways. No particular reason, just a sort of "yep, time to feel like shit and almost cry for three hours." Kept me up late Sunday night/Monday morning, then I randomly felt like crap towards the end of Monday evening, then Tuesday I sort of emotionally collapsed over a conflict with a friend of mine which hadn't been bothering me before ... I almost considered giving Thanksgiving a miss, but my mom convinced me that it'd be better for me to talk with her about it.

The therapist-dude and I couldn't figure out why this mood-oscellation is happening; we weren't able to pinpoint any real cause, so we're going to focus on helping me deal with it so I don't melt down quite as badly and it doesn't drain me so much. And also on helping me sleep better; I suspect that this is a large part of the problem. The plan is 1. go to bed at a more fixed schedule (i.e. at 4 instead of "somewhere between 2 and 4"), 2. get up if I find myself tossing and turning so I don't associated "in bed" with "tossing and turning," 3. spend some time before bed not at the computer (45 minutes was the lowest time he suggested; I haven't nailed down what I'd do instead, unless I get a copy of Moby Dick and read that). He also wondered if I have some form of sleep apnea. Starting to ponder the best way to do things.

So, yeah, I've been distracted (and mildly emotionally unstable) enough that I started working on this blog post ... almost three hours ago now. Whee ...

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Nicky the Lizard People

*all hugs*
Hang in there, muffinbuddy.
I hope you can figure out what's messing with your head and fix it soon.

Kimiko Muffin

*hugs back*

Oh, and just for good measure, I woke up at 8 and couldn't get back to sleep :S

Formica Archonis

Good luck with the sleep improving!

Sixten

Aren't you a music composer? If so, why don't you spend an hour with the piano (or whatever is your instrument of choice) before going to sleep? Or does your mental state when tired interfere with your ability to play?

Kimiko Muffin

I only make music on the computer. I don't actually have anything else. ^^;

(And even then, I live in an apartment building, and I don't expect my neighbors would be happy about playing an instrument at 3 AM ...)

Hikari Patchy's Mimic

Try being spontaneously cute and fluffy, it might help... well in the silly way anyway. Good luck Muffin. oh and the Plushy thing I still suggest it is nice to have something to hug when you go to sleep.

GreatLimmick

I can tell you from experience that Moby Dick will put you to sleep. You might have trouble staying awake for the full 45 minutes though.

Zoom

Why does the worst happen to he best? ....

Yesh, hang in there mate. I and a whole lot of other people will be rooting for ya.

Henix Aurorus

Oh, and just for good measure, I woke up at 8 and couldn't get back to sleep :S

I know how you feel. I got like, 0 hours of sleep last night/this morning.