2012/11/21: Emotional Crash
The past few days have kind of been an emotionally-unstable meltdown for me in certain ways. No particular reason, just a sort of "yep, time to feel like shit and almost cry for three hours." Kept me up late Sunday night/Monday morning, then I randomly felt like crap towards the end of Monday evening, then Tuesday I sort of emotionally collapsed over a conflict with a friend of mine which hadn't been bothering me before ... I almost considered giving Thanksgiving a miss, but my mom convinced me that it'd be better for me to talk with her about it.
The therapist-dude and I couldn't figure out why this mood-oscellation is happening; we weren't able to pinpoint any real cause, so we're going to focus on helping me deal with it so I don't melt down quite as badly and it doesn't drain me so much. And also on helping me sleep better; I suspect that this is a large part of the problem. The plan is 1. go to bed at a more fixed schedule (i.e. at 4 instead of "somewhere between 2 and 4"), 2. get up if I find myself tossing and turning so I don't associated "in bed" with "tossing and turning," 3. spend some time before bed not at the computer (45 minutes was the lowest time he suggested; I haven't nailed down what I'd do instead, unless I get a copy of Moby Dick and read that). He also wondered if I have some form of sleep apnea. Starting to ponder the best way to do things.
So, yeah, I've been distracted (and mildly emotionally unstable) enough that I started working on this blog post ... almost three hours ago now. Whee ...