2012/06/27: I Don't Hate Marisa/Tsundalice, I Hate Romance
So I've been thinking.
So, you might know my views on certain depictions of Alice's personality in romance doujins and fanfics. I've commented that apart from my own stuff, I can't really enjoy any romance-stories other than my own, due to the association; I get this weird sense of revulsion. Well, something happened recently: I was reading a romance-doujin with an entirely unrelated romantic pairing between two characters who were behaving more or less according to canon,1 and I got the exact same sense of revulsion. That's when the title of this blog post hit me: I don't hate Marisa/some-off-canon-depiction-of-Alice romance stories, I hate all romance stories. I don't know why, it just rubs me the wrong way. I don't have a problem with fanart depicting pairings I like, but as soon as I have to start reading it, it puts me off. Except most of my own creations, for reasons I still haven't quite figured out. In fact, here's a revelation: I always cringe at comic #3, and always have. I had no idea why, though, until now.
I still hate what some fans have called "FAILice," of course, but now I understand that my problem stemmed from two different things which were actually entirely separate, and one of them was less specific and more subjective than I thought. The results, now that I know this? Well, mostly different choices about what stories I expose myself to, for the most part; nothing anyone else will necessarily see. But it's always interesting to find out new things about the way my mind works, and how to leverage this so I can hopefully get more enjoyment out of life.
Side note: I was originally going to include some sort of comment about how "it is not her canon personality" isn't a good reason to dislike FAILice given that there's good and bad both canon and non-canon, and futhermore it would be mildly hypocritical given what I've done with Flandre alone (at least in the Catness arc, but more generally her whole character-arc from "psycho" to "sane" to "doctor in the future-timeline"). But then I realized that canon never actually came up in the Deadly Cliche article, and it's still generally agreed (or at least by people who agree with me) that it is objectively terrible, so I decided that bringing up canon and related ideas would be irrelevant and distracting.
1As far as any Touhou characters in fan-made stories can be said to be "behaving according to canon."